Wednesday, February 16, 2011
I have not been up to doing much creatively lately, first of all I caught a flu bug that seems to want to linger and recur into different things. Also I have had a few stressful life moments recently and some issues I am trying to solve that takes my brain out of creative realm.
So the other day I thought I would get some brown paper sacks ready for Eco Art projects so that when the mood struck I would be ready. I am wanting to paint more abstracts as I enjoy painting them and pushing those boundaries and I also enjoy looking at them. As I started this piece the plan was abstract grass and colors and swirls. After the first few strokes though I saw a heart forming and went from there and it became less about grass and more about feelings. The new title became Tangled Love. These are the thoughts that started going through my head. As we go through life and love there are so many complexities, there is darkness and light, there is withering and regrowth, merges and overlaps, changes in direction. Life isn't always what you think or dream it to be but regardless it continues to happen to you. The painting is quite simple and I am not sure if you can see these things in it but I can and that is what I was thinking as I painted.
Nothing was really resolved from painting it, I don't feel an overwhelming sense of painting therapy, but maybe it will help me in the end, grasp some of the things I am feeling, take ownership and make better where I can.
I definitely know myself to be a mood dresser and find it very hard to pack, but it seems maybe that I have opened up a new part of me that is creating based more on mood. Something to think about or maybe not, we will leave that to be seen.